Bumbling, Terrified, and Sent by God
The women had seen the empty tomb, and (in Luke) they had run to tell the disciples of their discovery. The two disciples on the road to Emmaus had seen the resurrected Jesus, and they ran back to tell the disciples. Then Jesus himself comes and stands in the midst of them.
Jesus had foretold his death and resurrection several times in his life and ministry. Now, what he had said to them – and what had been written in the scriptures about him – was coming to fruition. And they were getting news about his resurrection from several sources.
So how did the disciples react when Jesus comes to stand in the midst of them?
They’re so excited they can hardly contain themselves? No.
As giants of faith, they rest happily, showing their confidence that they knew this would happen all along? No.
Here are the words that Luke uses to describe the disciples: startled, terrified, doubt[ing], frightened, in joy, disbelieving, and still wondering. Besides the quick mention of “joy” there, the faith of the disciples seems a little bleak, doesn’t it?
The really scary thing, is that these are the people who God was counting on to tell the world about Jesus, salvation, repentance, and the forgiveness of sins.
THE SALVATION OF THE WORLD – THE REDEMPTION OFALL HUMANKIND – rested upon these cowering men, hiding in the upper room, scared out of their wits, and unsure about everything.
What exactly were they scared of? I mean, at first glace, everything seems to be pretty normal: Jesus is among them, opening scripture, eating with them, and proclaiming peace, hope, and God’s power. Sounds like any other day that Jesus was with his disciples, doesn’t it?
But, while nothing has changed, everything has changed: Jesus had died. He was dead and buried. The government had executed him. And here he was standing in the room with them – and just in case they thought it was all a dream or he was a figure of their imagination: he had the wounds to prove that it had indeed happened.
If Jesus was just dead and gone, the disciples and the other followers of Jesus would have mourned deeply for a couple of days – maybe even a couple of weeks. But, gradually they would have come to a place of peace and contentment. They would have gone on with their lives, and would have had great stories to remember him by.
But, now that he’s come back from the dead, the whole world has been changed – and they have major work to do.
Listen to what Jesus has to say about himself and the scriptures foretelling his life, death, and resurrection: Thus it is written, that the Messiah is to suffer and to rise from the dead on the third day, and that repentance and forgiveness of sins is to be proclaimed in his name to all nations, beginning from Jerusalem. You are witnesses of these things.
The suffering and rising from the dead on the third day – that was Jesus’ job, and it was done.
The proclamation of repentance leading to the forgiveness of sins in Jesus’ name to all nations, beginning from Jerusalem – whose job was that? It was theirs. They were in Jerusalem, and their job description had just gotten a little more added to it.
I suppose my knees would be knocking too.
The disciples had come to the realization that while some things were the same as they had always been (the sun was still going to rise in the east, winter was still going to follow fall, and gravity was still going to pull apples to the ground when dropped from above) everything was now different, and would never be the same: There was no mistaking, Jesus WAS indeed the Messiah, he was in fact resurrected from the dead, and they were indeed being sent forth into the world on the most foreboding, dangerous, and impossible job ever given to a human being: proclaiming the Gospel to every corner of the world.
Here’s a few things to notice in this text:
First, Luke makes it very clear that the Resurrection actually happened, and that it was a physical resurrection. His ‘spirit’ didn’t just rise. His body didn’t just go missing. He was raised to life again by the Power of God, and he appeared with flesh and bone, with the wounds of a crucifixion, and with an appetite. Luke doesn’t add the fact that he ate the fish in the presence of the disciples for nothing: he was trying to tell us that since ghosts and spirits don’t eat, Jesus wasn’t a ghost or a spirit.
And yet, at the same time, Jesus’ Presence is different: the disciples walking with him on the road to Emmaus didn’t recognize him, Mary mistook him for the gardener at the tomb, and at the Upper Room he could appear instantly in the room even though the doors and the windows were locked.
Yet one more way to see that everything was the same as it had been before, and yet everything was completely different.
Second, an interesting note with powerful implications: Jesus interprets the scriptures to say that he had to rise from the dead, and that those who came after him had a mission. What was the mission? To proclaim repentance leading to the forgiveness of sins. Realize what it doesn’t say here: the mission of the followers of Jesus isn’t to tell people to be good, to sin less, or to commit lesser sins if they must sin at all: the mission of the followers of Jesus is to tell sinners that there is redemption and hope, forgiveness and a way out that begins with repentance.
Unfortunately, the mission of the followers of Jesus has been warped throughout the centuries to become the morality police. And that’s all well and fine – but it’s not the job that Jesus gave his followers: Our job is to proclaim the Good News of the forgiveness of sins, not the illusion that somehow if we’re good enough we can overcome sin by our own efforts. The Good News of the Gospel of Jesus is that even though we’re sinners, God still loves us, counts of worthy to be his children, and counts us worthy enough to send his son to die for our sins, and destroy the power of sin and death by his Resurrection.
Which brings us to the third interesting thing to notice. Actually, it’s not all that interesting – in fact it should make us downright startled, terrified, doubt[ful], frightened, disbelieving, and still wondering – even if a little joyful too: when Jesus gave them their mission, it wasn’t just THEIR mission. It’s ours too. WE are to proclaim repentance for the forgiveness of sins in Jesus’ name to all nations. The mission began in Jerusalem, it continues in Lonaconing, Gilmore, Cumberland, Fort Ashby, Frostburg, and everywhere people claim Jesus as Lord.
Most churches today don’t get to the point where this mission scares them. When most Christians hear the mission we’re given following the Resurrection of Jesus, they aren’t terrified or frightened; they’re bored. I see most churches glaze over and begin thinking of what’s for breakfast when confronted with the demands of discipleship and apostleship.
But, when we cease being people of mission, we cease being the church. When we become preoccupied with the busy-ness of our lives, or the busy-ness of churchy stuff, or the busy-ness of being the morality police we stop being the Church of Christ and we start being a country club. Country clubs are fine, but they don’t give you access to the Kingdom of God no matter how high the greens fees.
Here’s what gives me hope though: if Jesus counted on those poor little frightened men cowering in the upper room, surely he can count on me. And you.
If they could move beyond their fear, and begin the mission of spreading God’s promise of the forgiveness of sins, hope, love, and redemption, then so can I.
I think the Gospel writers kept in all those references to fear and trembling in the first followers of Jesus to keep us from thinking they were stained glass giants of faith. They were just as bumbling and troublesome as the rest of us, and God called them – so why wouldn’t God call us.
Here’s the other thing that gives me hope: There is forgiveness in Jesus’ name through repentance, through the cross, and through the empty tomb. Each time I fail to be a disciple, each time I fail to be an apostle, each time I fail to be a nice person, God not only gives me another chance, but He gives me another hundred chances.
There is always hope, there is always God’s love, and because of that there should always be voices to remind the world of that, in Jesus’ name. Amen.
